Dear Rob and Brenny, you guys don’t know each other but you’re the last two tethers to me existing—Rob the dad of a nephew, Brenny the friend since high school; Rob’s agnostic, Brenny’s Catholic.
In some regards this is a last will/testament because tomorrow night is an art reception at a reputable gallery in Malibu, and I got two pieces hanging, and I’m hoping to parlay it into support as a visual artist. If it doesn’t happen, my car won’t smog, driving on tags from May, and pulled over Mr. Toad’s Wild Ride ends.
I’m sixty, got hundreds of pieces hanging around the world and thousands of copies out there of the first novel (both perhaps to be discovered in the future), and as a playwright, eyeing my own narrative, maybe hiking to a cliff over-looking the Pacific and doing a swan dive is a pretty fuckin’ cool way to end it. Of course I’d rather live to fight another day, I’d rather complete the novel I got ten yeas work into and include this letter in it.
If you guys split cost on lease for vehicle for six months, I’ll get a job at Costco or somewhere and become a working stiff; just focusing on being sustainable.
Was hoping dad/Pops would be there, and we talked and I impressed upon him I’m about to lose my vehicle (all that stands between me and living in the bushes), where he said OK, I got you. Then nothing. Pops is a five year old now and Mike controls him. Guess my younger brother stole my dad is part of the narrative too.
I don’t expect either of you to be burdened by me, fuckin weird mother fucker as I am (who has never been debauched or iniquitous [which is why I can look anyone straight in the face, as many fails as I've had]); just didn’t want to let this moment pass without saying such. Tomorrow night on Malibu Road until 9pm will be a definitive moment for lil ‘ol daydreamer John De Herrera :)
Love you guys and how you conduct life, knowing you both you’d make each other laugh. You are studs, I’m a misfit and maybe only in this day and age. Regardless, the fuckin colorfield art will live. Fingers crossed, time will tell.
Rob: 408-763-
Brenny: 310-717-
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